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Is anybody going to Kansas anytime soon? Or in the area.  if you are PLEASEEE HOOK ME UP WITH A FUCKING RIDE!!! Even if its around the kansas area I dont care.  Just as long as I get closer to Kansas then I am right now.  PLEASE let me know if you know anybody or if you yourself are going to kansas. ...

    So, last night Matt called. I am sooo pissed!!! I was in the middle of saying peace out to him...and he was telling me peace out as well....and just like that...MY PHONE DIES!!!! Then I go downstairs to get the other home phone, and it doesn't work!!! UGHHH stupid ass phones!
    After doing some ...

Matt called me literally 6 minutes ago....and HOLY FUCKING SHIT I AM SOOOO HAPPY!!! I'm glad I didn't have to wait till 9:00 to talk to him. Anyways, he calls me..and tells me he was havin crazy thoughts again...and....he tells me that he wants me so bad that he's about ready to start shaking...and t...

I wonder why...people lie... Have you ever wondered that??? I'm not saying anybody specific or anything...but..I meen people in general. I meen really...WHAT IS THE POINT?!?!?!?!?!?!?! It is best to tell the truth.....it will make a person trust you alot more....it will make the person understand ALO...

So today, Matt called me. He asked me if I could kidnap him. I was like" haha um......no."
Then he told me that he seriously wanted to run away because he is sick of people around him.  So then I've been thinking of things that could happen.  You know like, since I want to run away from this house as ...

So I was talking to Matt on the phone today, and my friend Kelly called. She told me that this guy who I have had a crush on since we were in 6th grade called her and said that He likes me!!! I was happy for a little bit, but then I got to thinking, " Oh my god what am I going to do??".  This guys na...

Okay so I've been thinking ALOT ALOT ALOT latley.  What have I been thinking about you may ask. Well I guess I've been wondering.  Wondering....howcome we haven't gone back out yet.  I meen....I understand possible reasons....but I'm just not sure. I'm thinking it's because I can't be there with Matt...

Hey sorry I haven't blogged for awhile people! Been kind of somewhat busy.  So, last night I was talking to matt on the phone....pretty late..and we got to talking about the future. He  was talking about his viper [as always] and he ended up saying something along the line of " Getting to have my v...

So, today I stayed after school for dance practice.  My mom came to pick me up at about 4:25 or somethign like that, and here was our conversation.:
mom-" hey hun how was school?"
me- " **silence**"
mom-" why wont u talk?"
me- " have no reason to"
mom-" just because you lost matt doesnt meen that it's t...

Okay so, i really needed to get on here and blog.  UGHHHH last n ight was THE worst night of my entire LIFE.  So ya'll know that Matt kid I have been blogging about? The same one I talk about in my profile...The same one...that i gave my whole....entire heart to...then he just goes....and stomps on i...