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Capricorn (Dec 22- Jan 19)Consummating a business deal or a romantic relationship today spells success as propitious Jupiter trines your key planet, karmic Saturn. Instead of getting what you deserve now, you probably can do even better than that. But be careful about taking on too many responsibilities that can scatter your energy. Focus your intentions first, and then don't hold back.

i'm getting a job. i like someone. lots of people are telling me they want to work together. i think i might be taking on more than i can handle. school is already killing me. is it really lame to like someone you met via the internet? be honest. oh well, it'll never happen anyway. even though we're VERY similar but VERY different. i read too far into things.

i thought i was done talking about this but i'm not. i don't talk to anyone about it really and i just need to get it out of my head. this boy is soooo ugh i don't even know. the sad part is i can't even convince myself to im him. why? i have absalutely no self confidence. maybe like seven oz. if that. honestly i cannot phathem anyone being interested in me. even though for a short amount of time he seemed interested. i'm just scared. ugh what's wrong with me? i'm scared that he'll get to know me, hate me, and just never talk to me again. or worse keep talking to me but hate me and talk behind my back or something completely ridiculous like that because like i said, i have no confidence. i should get medicated. yep. that could be awesome! ya know i always thought i hid everything so well but recently i've been called out on it. am i depressed? do i honestly have any reason to be upset all the time? i don't. why i am i don't know. i'm not saying i'm depressed i'm saying i'm not always as happy as i should be..same thing? basically but who cares. i guess ignoring an issue until it just becomes a bigger one isn't the best way to deal with things. so maybe it could have been something, and maybe it could have been a good something. and maybe even once more it could have been a great something. he's an artist, so am i. we're both just a bit strange, and idk. i'm thinking too much. i'm trying so hard to get the balls to get to know him, but i'm always the friend. i can't take that anymore. for once, i want to have someone be attracted to me...i want to feel what that's like. i've never felt like that before and as well as things are going i don't think i ever will.