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well in retrospect my life is a creation of my own.
but that doesnt mean i like it
it just so happens that nothing right now is going the way i want it.
my emotions are fucking with my head again
i know how i feel in all respects anbd i cant.
i feel bad for treating people who have or had feelings for me like dirt.
how am i meant to know its not their fault i thought theyd abandoned me.
but i cant help it
and i know that all those feelings are still there. how could they leave.
its just they are dredged up in alternate personage
i was cursed like this
and as if that wasnt enough i always put my foot in everything as well.
i think im finaly taking the advice of not wrighting my deepest grievances in this.
but i think if your involved you know who you are and can understand what little veiling ive put on these topics.
i just want to know. message me if you read this.
i want to know who does.
if anyone does
if the right people read this blog. they might end up knowing things they might not like
if the wrong people read this they will tell the right people the wrong things
oh fuck
i miss you all
if you fall into this categopry you know who you are