drake: Blog

the little green light

drake — Sat, 20 Sep 2008 14:48:26 +0000

is still only ornage
and im still the same boy sitting topless at his computer touselling his hair.

i dont understand

black ink stains my wings once again

drake — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 14:41:46 +0000

for this i shal employ the use of imagery that to most will make no sense
but the message should make it anyway

i soared, high through heavens, carried on wings a black as night.
watched over by the firey locks of an angel.
then there was nothing,
and the red feathers ceased to fall around me.
i grew old,
i grew empty
the pigment fled from my wings and i lost my path.
i wandered dead through hapless skies
as my vision died and i lost my way
but now my angel flies over me once again
and the ink has spilled into my feathers once again
i feel the stregth to flap
will i follow the red winged angel once again?
the answer is always the same, but where is she leading me?

to the bat cave ... drake!??!

drake — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 11:58:53 +0000

yes its true
i now have my very own batcave.
its in the bottom of my room and its a concealed entrance to the basment.
i am going to deck the basment out in all coolness!
and then me n my friends are gonna
forchill in the basket cave!

im fucked in the head and you just love reading about it.

drake — Thu, 19 Jun 2008 06:12:56 +0000

well in retrospect my life is a creation of my own.
but that doesnt mean i like it
it just so happens that nothing right now is going the way i want it.
my emotions are fucking with my head again
i know how i feel in all respects anbd i cant.
i feel bad for treating people who have or had feelings for me like dirt.
how am i meant to know its not their fault i thought theyd abandoned me.
but i cant help it
and i know that all those feelings are still there. how could they leave.
its just they are dredged up in alternate personage
i was cursed like this
and as if that wasnt enough i always put my foot in everything as well.
i think im finaly taking the advice of not wrighting my deepest grievances in this.
but i think if your involved you know who you are and can understand what little veiling ive put on these topics.
i just want to know. message me if you read this.
i want to know who does.
if anyone does
if the right people read this blog. they might end up knowing things they might not like
if the wrong people read this they will tell the right people the wrong things
oh fuck
i miss you all
if you fall into this categopry you know who you are

yes its my third blog in about a fort-week

drake — Mon, 26 May 2008 09:21:35 +0000

my head is split like a...
well split like my head.
but split something thats split realy bad.
and its not like before where ive not known what i want.
right now i know EXACTLY what i want.
and that is as a whole.
i have analised exatly what i want.
every part of me.
and theese things dont exactly mesh.
and then theres the other issues.
take one example.
i know what i want
and i cant stop feeling what i SHOULD want.
its wierd how ones motives can change.
and they can still have the same old motives in their heads
like me.
i know what i used to want. and that i dont still want it scares me a little.
its like ive finaly phased
i will be whatever it is that encorperates me most effectively
and at present it would seem that a friend.
not particularly a good one.
i lost that
prehaps through weakness
prehaps through something else.
but i dont want to rant about one thing.
i am confused. not in the way i was before
[frustrated and angry]
im confused like when a cartoon charecter gets smaked by a frying pan and floats out of their own body.
and is like woah wth happened
but a teacher said they could see me getting the scholarship i want
and if that happens.
then nothing will be confusing.
well not in this way.
it wil be hard to get money and all.
but ...
other things will be clear.
not every other thing.
but enough to matter
yours confusedly,
yet pensively
D.P.E
;]don't tell

hmmmmm prehaps it just a blog?

drake — Sun, 25 May 2008 01:39:27 +0000

hmmmm
i mean whats with me and the cryptic bulletins.
there was a time when i made blanket statments.
of worse things than i could possibly mention now.
but i supose that WAS before i had so many people get trig profiles.
hm and my biggest mistake. mentioning i blocked him on something he too can acsess.
oh well.
worth the risk
hmmm

drip

drake — Thu, 22 May 2008 11:51:26 +0000

theres a slow loud noise in my head
its a dripping tap
no one can understand why
but i hope you can all understand
its the sound of something dropping.
faling into reccognition
something ominous
loud and so unsure that it just keeps repeating itself
i have a great fear.
he might find out ive blocked him
and if he does god help me.
and god help the red winged angel.
lets hope
the tree of ygdrassil
stands strong and tall

red winged angel of the darkening eclipse

drake — Fri, 16 May 2008 09:59:03 +0000

i love her
im like the lady of the lake
waiting patiently
no one ever thought she might be waiting for an angel
not for merlin or artur or cammelot
but for her OWN happily ever after
but eventualy i will be wreathed in mahogony
having finaly made the flight of the darkened dove
to be with my angel
until ragnarok

one day

drake — Fri, 02 May 2008 07:04:24 +0000

today was a total blast from the past.
this morning... on my recent visitors
at school i was listening to placebo
"some times its fade out
disintegrated"
then thousand of little things started happening
i tried to listen to panzer AG
but i just saw to much of a conection with the song
anemial just the name
hmmmmmmm
all i need now it the little box on the side of my screen
just like heaven or
wel have halloween on christmas
or something of the sort
but she blocked me
so i have no expectations of that
i cant stop being reminded of her
the one i never respected.
never enough at least
and now stuff is going down
and i wish i could help
but i feel so distant
like im not allowed to help
because of what people would think
i dont know how or why i let myself become so insignificant
i wish i was able to at least be a friend
anything
cos you can crush my feelings out of me
but i will NEVER stop caring
its not in my nature
i could be anything to help
even a little
and reading my blog just makes me so very regretfull of all the stuff i went through
and how i blew it all out of proportion
i was a total prick
i was wrong
and thats what i regret
that i wasnt good enough
i supose im just getting myself down
im going to go now

lewis
drake
whoever we are

flap flap :*(

drake — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 12:22:38 +0000

is it sad to sit here staring at that little green circle?
thinking how is it possible? my luck cant be that good
chances are it isnt
but none the less im going to end up going to sleep a lot later from waiting around for a message
oh well
"such is life"
ned kelly the day he was hung
words to like by
i might wright a song
hmmm dee hmm hmmm...
black wings...
dumm... dee. duuuuum...
lifes great eclipse
[time zones eh]
dum doo dee dah.....
oh dear my favourite noise
NEW MESAGES!!!!

magical blog

drake — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 08:44:57 +0000

iiiits baaaaaaaaaack
and its got a new trick
drakes satndard blog is ten times as quick as the last time
the last time you saw it
now you can see why we realy adore it
you might think its new trick is siiick
sawing a pigion in half with a stick
look at the pigeion
now its in two
it s front
and its rear end is having a poo
look at the meeeeeess
in aisle two
that is the place where we saw the ragou
the ragoooooouuuu
theres so much ragou

on a slightly more serious note im feeling pretey good
hmmm i STILL cant fly
but thats not getting me down SO much anymore
and i can always write an award winning novel and then move to london
and PAY to fly
hmmmmmmmm
in the distant future
but still possible
i might even switch the novel and the flying part
hmmmm

drake
and possibly somone else
[even the fact that i say that makes it likly]

did i just make a stupid mistake

drake — Sat, 26 Apr 2008 08:33:12 +0000

i hope that wanst just appear offline
hmmmmm
i hope i havent screwed up a good friend
a fabulous friend

hmmm shagsbeer?

drake — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 10:18:17 +0000

where would you be
oh dearest night
that would blacken brightest day?
who would come froth and tear from me my last vesiges of hope and solice
but to hold me tight
in crusted bed garments?
warm and incipid
cold and brisk
is it this meal that i should eat?
could pizza?
cooked inside a nova oven?
awwwww fuck
i was gonna rite something realy long and shakspearian but i had to reply to an e-mail and i got in the mood to rant about how words are great little things and how she missinterpreted them
but its out of my system
o you wont be subjected to it
well im all dry
im gonna go now

drake
and possibly somone else

you know what's pissing me off?

drake — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 06:43:08 +0000

evryone who i want to message on trig lives in another fucking continent
so i cant even message them cos they wont get it till im asleep
fuckit
two tears in a bucket
oh fucking well its up to me to entertain myself
but it raining here so yuck
god im tired
my fucking [now] ex drummer has the nerver to tell me he can only get to practce if its at 8 15!
so i get up after staying up late to meet him in the morning and you know what he shows up at fucking 11 oclock!!
what an idiot
god he pisses me off!!!

i might start doing this again

drake — Mon, 21 Apr 2008 08:17:30 +0000

but if you know me you know that promise is not very solid at all
but i think 1 person at least might read this
but who cares
iv said befor this for me not you
its just nice to know that people DO listen
but prehaps im just trying to bust time by doing this
im going to see if i can toutch my toes with my nose without using my hands
il be back when i give up

my last blog was rather unpleasant

drake — Sun, 20 Apr 2008 12:17:41 +0000

true
i must addmit that but still unpleasant
i do like the concept of eating people yes but it would apear that
im a creep
from reading my last bulletin
im not a creep
well i dont think i am
im just a little wierd is all
i like to eat peopl
and i have a thing for zombies
so what
some people like eating shit
now THATS wierd
verry verry wierd
i wonder how people stumblke across my profile
and i wonder if anyone still checks my blog
or if they ever did
i might go back and read it
it would be an interesting insight into who we where

would you let me eat you?

drake — Wed, 30 Jan 2008 02:56:10 +0000

if you where to die
and there was no way to stop it
would you let me eat you?
i wondered this
i want this
i want to feel somones flesh tear from their bones as i drink their blood and eath the raw flesh,
tender from the inside of their thighs
under the arms
and around the neck
it worrys me that im so violent
it worrys me that i can no longer control myself as i did
but i have my little friends whove sworne to be my fang whores
and im greatfull to them
if i indulge my vices
they wont control me
unless i indulge them too much
for now il have just one
and prehaps later i will sink into a culture where those i would take
do not will or deserve to live
a place where i can take down those who are not worthy to walk this earth
it is a duty i have long wished to take on
and now in several years prehaps i can
i wish to devour those who deserve it
those who have commited heracy against human rights
those who betray their own humanity
have not the right to live

quotes from the heart

drake — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 10:34:35 +0000

i completely forgot about my blog
but now thers only me
shortly before we where working down our numbers
for mandys arival
but then
she broke his heart
he was to be the last
but now i am the last

"others have gone before you
learn from them
but do not follow
you are the last"

i feel theese words
i know little of how my life will unfold
only that it will be mine
the life i was born to lead
something important
the trailblazer

"i want to be somone.. important, like an actor"

more quotes seemingly made specificaly for me

i loved mandy
and i still do
but she never did
and for that, in such an aspect
i will never forgive her

why do people say love when they mean like

Blog for January 18, 2008

drake — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 10:34:05 +0000

mandy

drake — Wed, 28 Nov 2007 06:09:02 +0000

i want her
not the way a teenage boy wants a teenage girl
but the way a three year old
wants its mother
i know it sounds sad
but i realy have nothing to do with my life withought her
im so bored
that last night i put jelly into a toothpaste tube
i mean wtf!

im sorry

drake — Sun, 28 Oct 2007 06:18:58 +0000

i, Drake
solemnly swear never agian to let the others be pricks
i have to say
last night i made out with a naked chick
ive met maybe three times
why would i let damien do that
a few weeks ago i slept with my exes friend six times in the same night
why would i let darkness do that
a while before both i got drunk and was realy depressed the next day
why would i let daien do that to me
in conclusion
this ends now!

im suprised at my neglect

drake — Thu, 11 Oct 2007 04:49:33 +0000

i must say that i have not had much to wright about of late
but now i do
more of the same
darkness os a filthy worm

((i will take this time to say
mandy
if you read this im sorry i couldnt tell you
i never knew
if youd belive me))

he has been geapordising my relationship with mandy
for the freind of my ex
whom id say he doesnt even love

or have any feelings for
besides lust
and not much else
she reminds him of a few people
and she is of course female
and thats why he fucks her
but i made a deal and i must stick to it
"we all get eaqual control till mandy arrives"
and until then there is nothing i can do to stop his actions

mmph

drake — Fri, 05 Oct 2007 09:54:41 +0000

she may be gorgeous
but when it comes to orgainising somthing
shes hopless
buty i love her

drake
you know the rest

aaahhh i feel at home when im in control

drake — Thu, 27 Sep 2007 06:59:02 +0000

i (drake)
am enjoying life to the full
i miss my gorgeously beutiful girlfriend mandy
but she will be up in the holidays and then i will go nuts
coz i have missed her so verry much theses last few months
i am despratly in love with her
but enough about my perfect girl
(i love her)
i am in control
im loving it
i love all those who will read and comment my blogg
(but no where as much as i love mandy/
so not possible to love somone who isnt her that much)
mmm
i have to go now

bored in singapore

drake — Sat, 22 Sep 2007 00:39:59 +0000

wtf
boobeeboobeeboo
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
why wont my dad get off the fucking computer
and why is flying so shitty
wrrrreowr
plane flying noise of doom
doom
doooooo000000000oooooom
im on a mexican radio
ah
wooooaaaaaooooooh
im on a mexican woah radio
barbequed iguanan
i like aiiiroplane jello
eairoplkane jello for meeeeeeeeeeeee
im sorry
on a more serious note
i hate mypresent situation
and all of my counterparts as we compete
for first place
in a deathly race

Drake
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