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no one gives a shit about...

gettingthefear — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 14:25:55 +0000

a girl like me.

/bang.

THIS IS MY MIND.

gettingthefear — Mon, 12 May 2008 00:30:42 +0000

my life really amazes me.
i step back and take a look at it all, and sometimes it's just wow, thats fucked up.
it shouldn't be like that.
but the truth is, it is supposed to be this way.
this is what's normal.
fucked up relationships.
fucked up emotions.
just everything being so weird. and i dont know. just wrong.
i think that's the American way of life, in these times,->>2000 mother fucking 8.
things have changed since the year 104 A.D. ... .B.C. ... or when ever anyone could say the world was ok.
today, tonight, everyone is just sad, lonely, miserable, getting treated like shit.
so why do i feel like i deserve any better,
i'm always complaining how its not good enough...
nothing is good enough.
but really if i look at everything, and the standards of everyones' way of lives,
everything is right in line.

do you understand what i'm say?
i'm happy to explain.

one day....

gettingthefear — Fri, 09 May 2008 14:38:00 +0000

i'm going to die.
and i will look back.
and every one i know...

will be having a party.

my reality is detrimental.

leariks.

gettingthefear — Fri, 09 May 2008 14:30:01 +0000

Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself, tied myself too tight

Looking kind of anxious in your cross armed stance
Like a bad tempered prom queen at a homecoming dance

And I claim I'm not excited with my life any more
So I blame this town, this job, these friends
The truth is it's myself
And I'm trying to understand myself
And pinpoint where I am
By the time I get things figured out
I've change the whole damn plan

Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself, tied my myself too tight

Talking shit about a pretty sunset
Blanketing opinions that I'll probably reget soon

I've changed my mind so much I can't even trust it
My mind changed me so much I can't even trust myself

--Modest Mouse
Talking shit about a pretty sunset.

look it up on imeem or dizzler if you havent heard it. it's good.

this needs to stop

gettingthefear — Fri, 02 May 2008 15:44:05 +0000

i dont want to travel this way anymore.
i need something steady.
take my hand, and show me the way my love.

my best friend is so cool .... wait what?

gettingthefear — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 14:46:54 +0000

you're fake.
you try too hard.
you're not an individual.
so stop portraying yourself as "different"
you're the same as everyone else.
just as shallow.
just as niave.
just as heartless.
you're just a bitch.

i told my counselor about you
kenny was there that day too.
we talked a lot about you.
she thinks you have borderline personality disorder.

why did i waste 4 years of my life on this pointles relationship?
my counselor says relationships are supposed to end, there's only a few that are supposed to last in your life.
i guess its just all a learning experienced.
and what have i learned?

people really are who you think they are 99% of the times,
and you'e one of them.

like bffs yo

gettingthefear — Mon, 21 Apr 2008 18:05:23 +0000

you see only with your eyes
even after ive displayed these extra ordinary lenses
all exclusively for YOU
you, whom its always for.
still im searching
ever so frantically
i've come across nothing else i can do
my wing has become so tired
the effort to raise it once more has escaped me
its been here all along to gently cover you
sheild you
defend you
but i suppose your concern has escaped you as well

im changing
you're the same
im changing
you put yourself that hole, once a-fucking-gain
but i told you, im done
im putting my shovel down
all my pitty changed to distugstigust.

i hate everythign you are

get out while you can

gettingthefear — Sun, 20 Apr 2008 00:42:08 +0000

im not here anymore
im starting to think i never was at all
these feelings will never be imperishable
ive tried so hard for all of you
you, so preoccupied with the loudness of your mind
its all plastered to the backround
right back around twice repeating but always feeling new
lean forward, smile hard, you never heal.
im waiting for it, just waiting
i'd say im being rather patient, you know?
its been years, more than i can even count
that wind of change to ring the chime
and it will be ok.

im not fooling myself.
you must know i do know
the situation completely asessed
reality already measure in full
i know what hole sits in the ground before me
its just more fun this way.
im sure the fall will be just painful enough...

p

gettingthefear — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 00:01:51 +0000

thers a girl out here who could have been more.

you should have tired
you should have stayed

you could be better
maybe a little happy

i wonder what youre doing now.

normal.

gettingthefear — Wed, 09 Apr 2008 14:47:44 +0000

im so confused by everyone.
especially here at school.
i just dont get it.
what the fuck are you people doing.
what?

honesty is a bitch.

gettingthefear — Wed, 09 Apr 2008 01:30:23 +0000

i'm a loser with no life.
nice to meet you.

help

gettingthefear — Tue, 08 Apr 2008 18:07:49 +0000

As an avid internet explorer, I find google really fucking irritating when I’m searching for something other than Lindsay Lohan and what celebrity just got fucked in the ass. So here are some links that I found very helpful in search for different art and shit.

www.derekhess.com

www.davidquiggle.com

www.invisiblecreature.com

...more to come. no time left. but derek hess's website is a must.

peace and love