herv

Ok so I'm going to use this post to vent some fustrations about last nights show.  As a band we try to be as profesional as possible.  This means If you tell us that load in is at 4 we'll be there as close to 4 as possible and when we get there someone running the show should be in the building.  Last night we fufilled our end unfortunately the other party didn't show up until after 5 the supposed show start time.  Not a problem none of us have any other shit going on in our lives.  Slap in the face number one.  The show actually doesn't get under way for another hour and forty five minutes.  By around 7:30 I was no longer amused nor was I feelin the vibe for the show.  From 7:30 to 8:00 I am subjected to what could be good music if the band ever decides to stop fuckin around.  During this time the singer said several times if anyone wanted him to "shut the fuck up" just to tell him.  Which I was happy to yell several times.   At about 8:15 the time bomb fuse was lit.  I was tired of being dicked around I was tired of the fuckin hippies runnin shit and rather than deck my fuckin guitar player who is trying to calm me down I decided to take my fustrations out on some of the bar.  A good long outburst a broken picture frame Bar Owned a smashed hand and a bent parking sign later Herv was starting to feel better.  I still wanted to leave luckily Charles was able to bring me back to my senses a little bit.  The Bar, kinda pissed that I broke some of their shit was not amused and had to be reassured by the other guys in the band that I wasn't gonna cause any more trouble.  Oh and I had to appologise for breakin their picture.  Nine Fuckin Thirty we finally go on, still kinda pissed I really didn't even try to connect with the audience.  I did manage to make it through the whole show without tellin the dudes who threw the show to suck my fuckin cock.  I'm not really sure what set me off, the whole day was pretty fucked.  I think it was just an accumulation of things.  For this post I'm postin up some lyrics that I never made it into anything

I sit alone at night
and put the gun to my head
I know that it's not right
but all I want to be is dead
For me there's nothing left
no love between you and I
Now I sit alone
as the tears fall from my eyes

People I have known
have put me to the test
and the emptiness I feel
is leaving me with
no rest

As I lie in bed
I think about my life
people who have wronged me
caused me pain and strife
I wish for someone to save me
though I know I can't be saved
now I look no futher
to this game I stay a slave