insanewoman

allright so today was my first day of acting. Aaannnnddd I suck! not at acting in general, they say I've got theater acting down pact, but my camera acting needs a little bit of improvement. The teacher Valorie, she's really awesome. I love her. She speaks honestly if we suck, but not brutally. I was so happy and then I felt scared like I couldn't make it. I really was going through moodswings, but I swear that I'm gonna do this if I like it or not.  I can't spend all of my life at my parent's house and acting is something I am REALLY passionate about.


Okay so on to sex. Right, well we got to audition for alot of directors at once and they would give us little scenes to act out. So I had this one scene where I was having sex with one of the guys in my class and our "dad" walks in and starts giving the whole "sex talk" to his son. SO I had to lay down and pretend to be having sex which was, if nothing AKWARD because I've never HAD sex. I just made noises, then pretended to be naked and embarressed. Which was amusing. I've never had to pretend something like that before it was....amusing. I feel like my weight is holding me back more. I usually got the sucky parts. the "mother" or the "housewife" I dunno...it's just...you know... I feel like the directors (Since they were all young and students themselves) I think they didn't see me and just my weight...I wanna go throw up right now....oh well.