insanewoman

I had an...interesting evening. So I had off today from my school and I decided to take today to sleep and relax. By the end of the day I was getting kinda lonely, so I called Rebecca, one of the girls who goes to my NYFA class, and we went out for dinner. So I have my GPS out, looking for the denny's I wanna go do when suddenly I look in the rearview mirror and I notice a funny little car. It was small and red and looked like a go-cart with a motor. So I am about to point it out to Rebbecca when I think "geeze I've seen this car before...and the man in it." So i kinda do a double take and then my eyes go wide and I SCREETCH out "HOLY SHIT IS THAT JAY LENO?!" and yes indeed it was Jay Leno right behind my fucking new hampshire piece of crap car. She turns to look and was like "YES I THINK IT IS" so I'm giggling like and idiot and trying to hide my stupidly grinning face, when Rebbecca turns and waves at him. He gives that Richard Nixon double peace sign and we are squealing like "OH MY GOD JAY LENO IS RIGHT BEHIND MY CAR!" And all of the sudden I can't help but think about Ash. Dear god, why the hell does Jay Leno follow my car and not the 69 eyes? LMAO.

So that was basically my evening.

I'll tell you about yesterday. So okay, first of all I like to be a strong girl and not cry in front of others. We had speech class yesterday and out teacher was doing this excercise where we would go up in front of the class and just stand, and he was able to pick out some parts of our personality. And I was like...third because I love to volunteer and was like "no way is he gonna see anything with me." and this man also would like...move our head around and tell us to pull up from our hips. And he got to me, and he started, and within the first few minutes he had some of my darkest feelings out and I was crying. Not bawling, but, like tears running from my eyes without them being able to stop. And he was so personal, because I've been hurt by men alot, and he was telling me he'd never do anything to hurt me and I almost sobbed out. That's all I want to hear out of a man. And while after he got me to trust him, he moved my neck around and seriously I could feel a difference in me, I was...releived...and he asked me to speak and tell him what I did this morning. So I did and my voice was soft and husky and he was like "you have a beautiful voice like this. It's normally pretty and high pitched, but this voice is...it's sexy and beautiful, you look so much more beautiful now." and even though I couldn't see myself I felt it.

It was so wierd! all of that just from the way I stood you know? And I was the only one that cried, but it felt good.

Okay that's about it peace.