insanewoman

Sometimes I hate humanity, I think it should all be cleansed. People are so filthy and evil.

So I had a mental breakdown coming home from school and dropping Derek off. So I made a really big mistake while driving (and I will admit it, it was completley stupid). I misjudged my timing and made a turn when a car was coming on. The car blared his horn and I wouldn't blame him, but he kept on blaring the horn for like a minute and flashing his lights, so I pulled over thinking I hit him a bit and I got like 'oh crap! I'm SO sorry!' So the guy pulls up beside me and yells ' do you drive that stupidly every day?!' and then when I tried to say 'I'm sorry I've had a long day' drives off! WHAT THE MOTHER FUCKING HELL WAS THAT?! one of the worst things was he had this like...american flag hanging on the back of the car.  At that moment I seriously wanted to go and kill that mother fucker. I wanted to hit him with my car and then chop off his head. Then I had a mental breakdown and was crying and I screamed. I was afraid I wouldn't make it home. I wanted to seriously just hit some other car and kill myself. But I don't want to die, I guess all my frustration just came out all at one time. The lonliness, the hurt, the desperation to do my best even when people think I can't act, the anger at that douchebag. He doesnt know me, I mean one fucking mistake and he has the right to talk to me like an asshole? Sure I did something stupid and I'm sorry and I would have payed out of my own pocket had something happened, but you know things happen. If I get pissed at someone while driving I keep it to myself, I don't bother being a complete asshole like he does. That's what people in america are, assholes.

People judge me because I'm fat, or I have a different way of thinking. Even if they don't like my voice, I love to sing and people tell me to 'shut the fuck up' which hurts. Can't I have fun and enjoy myself too? Why is Dominique allowed to sing and I'm not? So my voice isn't as good as hers, so what? Humans judge, they  hate, they hurt others and don't care. I just wish people would think before saying things. Things like that cause suicides every day, columbine to happen some times. Be a friend to someone who doesnt have a friend.

happy fucking valentines day