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This is just a couple feelings I have right now about a certain someone.
You treated me like I was special. You told me I was beautiful. Even once, you told me I looked like an angel. Besides Jules I'd never had any guy tell me that before. And I beleived you. I yearned for you, but...I wasn't afraid to show it. Isn't that what guys like? A confident woman, not afraid of their own sexuality? Michelle told me to be brave...and I openly said things that I would never say. When suzanne told me to do you, I actually said "I wish".
You saw the worst of me, I saw the worst of you, and still I loved you. It wasn't a crush, I know now. It was love, and I promise that I will make you love me some day.
You let me on, you flirted and winked and played with my emotions, but it wasn't you being a bastard. It was innocent...and thats why I hate you. You made me think that I actually had a chance, more than any other guy ever did. More than christian, more than Hiroki....you payed attention to me. You made me laugh and smile. I always looked for approval from you. You helped me when I was desperate and my soul was crying out for someone.
You held me once...but not because you love me...because you were comforting me, with all the others hugging me too...but yours I felt the most. Around the back, your head bowed to touch mine. For once I knew how it felt to be held by you. And I wanted more. I got stupid and greedy, thinking that I had you. I make that mistake often. Even with a girlfriend, I still thought that I had a chance. You admitted you didn't love her. I felt elated. I was stupid.
Your just too kind, too giving. Even your demons are sweet and I love them too. I know more things about you than alot of people do.
how could I ever see things that way? and by fucking gods I wrote you a love letter. how lame is that? I'm so naive when it comes to love or dating. How stupid am I?
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so after that heartbreak, no, I'm not being Emo, but I can feel sad once in a while too!
Okay so we finished year 1 of acting school! YAY! My final scene was a HIT !!!! EVERYONE thought it was the highlight of the night. I was amazed. As soon as I came out of the dressing room I was FLOODED by people wanting to see me. I was overwhelmed...but really....when Iw as doing my scene, Darek and I just KNEW that we had done it.I was actually so low on energy before the scene that when it came time for it I was just OVERFLOWING. and it went into what I did. I was happy the rest of the night and I didn't even CARE that I got a 50$ parking ticket. NO SIREE!
SO now I'm relaxing. had a bit of health issues, now i'm recuperating. so I'm gonna see Miyavi and go home, then come back and get work. That's the plan. Maybe I'll take off if the 69 come to america, but other than that, otakon and then back to year 2.
You treated me like I was special. You told me I was beautiful. Even once, you told me I looked like an angel. Besides Jules I'd never had any guy tell me that before. And I beleived you. I yearned for you, but...I wasn't afraid to show it. Isn't that what guys like? A confident woman, not afraid of their own sexuality? Michelle told me to be brave...and I openly said things that I would never say. When suzanne told me to do you, I actually said "I wish".
You saw the worst of me, I saw the worst of you, and still I loved you. It wasn't a crush, I know now. It was love, and I promise that I will make you love me some day.
You let me on, you flirted and winked and played with my emotions, but it wasn't you being a bastard. It was innocent...and thats why I hate you. You made me think that I actually had a chance, more than any other guy ever did. More than christian, more than Hiroki....you payed attention to me. You made me laugh and smile. I always looked for approval from you. You helped me when I was desperate and my soul was crying out for someone.
You held me once...but not because you love me...because you were comforting me, with all the others hugging me too...but yours I felt the most. Around the back, your head bowed to touch mine. For once I knew how it felt to be held by you. And I wanted more. I got stupid and greedy, thinking that I had you. I make that mistake often. Even with a girlfriend, I still thought that I had a chance. You admitted you didn't love her. I felt elated. I was stupid.
Your just too kind, too giving. Even your demons are sweet and I love them too. I know more things about you than alot of people do.
how could I ever see things that way? and by fucking gods I wrote you a love letter. how lame is that? I'm so naive when it comes to love or dating. How stupid am I?
____
so after that heartbreak, no, I'm not being Emo, but I can feel sad once in a while too!
Okay so we finished year 1 of acting school! YAY! My final scene was a HIT !!!! EVERYONE thought it was the highlight of the night. I was amazed. As soon as I came out of the dressing room I was FLOODED by people wanting to see me. I was overwhelmed...but really....when Iw as doing my scene, Darek and I just KNEW that we had done it.I was actually so low on energy before the scene that when it came time for it I was just OVERFLOWING. and it went into what I did. I was happy the rest of the night and I didn't even CARE that I got a 50$ parking ticket. NO SIREE!
SO now I'm relaxing. had a bit of health issues, now i'm recuperating. so I'm gonna see Miyavi and go home, then come back and get work. That's the plan. Maybe I'll take off if the 69 come to america, but other than that, otakon and then back to year 2.
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