Blog post 'one soul please....'
one soul please....
- Published: 151 days ago
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i feel out of place today, like a part of me just dropped off this part of the world.
an empty missing feeling... not a void in my heart {that thing is useless anyway} but into the core of who i am, the part that makes me. it's a strange suffocating feeling, and an urge to pack up and run away and not return, ... but leenstar has more responsibilities than a daycare center. I do not want to bound, i dont want to be a mother anymore {to a child}, I want to drown upside down and not worry about those it effects, but being part of the ripple is hard to not cause that reaction. What happened since i went to sleep last night and now....
It's like how in Tegan & sara's "you went away" lyrics says"
" Well I don't think we have to be like this forever
Is there more to life than love and being together?"
or
in apocalyptica's "I dont care":
"I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do"
it seems like to make an aileen you need:
an apocalyptic heart
a soulless soul
a mind of a artist
a camera
a paintbrush
cat hair
dog hair
birds feathers
blood of the earth
3 drops of maganeta dye
broken mirror peices
let it sit till it rots {within moments}
thats an aileen
i hope all of you are ok.... since i would rather stay sad/depressed/sick to make sure none one of you not suffer or hurt.
an empty missing feeling... not a void in my heart {that thing is useless anyway} but into the core of who i am, the part that makes me. it's a strange suffocating feeling, and an urge to pack up and run away and not return, ... but leenstar has more responsibilities than a daycare center. I do not want to bound, i dont want to be a mother anymore {to a child}, I want to drown upside down and not worry about those it effects, but being part of the ripple is hard to not cause that reaction. What happened since i went to sleep last night and now....
It's like how in Tegan & sara's "you went away" lyrics says"
" Well I don't think we have to be like this forever
Is there more to life than love and being together?"
or
in apocalyptica's "I dont care":
"I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do"
it seems like to make an aileen you need:
an apocalyptic heart
a soulless soul
a mind of a artist
a camera
a paintbrush
cat hair
dog hair
birds feathers
blood of the earth
3 drops of maganeta dye
broken mirror peices
let it sit till it rots {within moments}
thats an aileen
i hope all of you are ok.... since i would rather stay sad/depressed/sick to make sure none one of you not suffer or hurt.
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- Trigs
- 7
Everyone has their down moments too, and I have gone thru that too. Many times and I still do.....but don't let these things bring you down even further cos it'll just end up killing you.....you know?? also down moments help us reflect on other things and help learn to appreciate the smaller things in life.............you are an awesome lady and sure as hell strong, I know you can get over these things.....I's have's lots of's faith's in's you's......<333
and I think it takes a lot more to make an aileen, and there'll never be another one quite like you
I had a moment once where my reflection looked like a stranger staring back at me and I was like "really, who IS that?"
It happens. It goes. Sometimes it happens again...
Usually its the result of feeling like we're stuck in a rut.