leenstarism

strange strange dreams last night but that always happens when i drink myself to a drowning point.
friday to sat
dream one:  I am walking down an open field talking with someone who I can not hear but I can see they are happy, he is in focus and the background is a blur but you can make out there are trees and dead grass all in shades of grey and white. As I look at him and the ground and occasionally around the world is falling apart, chunks fall to the ground, like glasses slices the ground, Buildings parts, car parts, its all a blur. But I keep walking with him since I have a huge sense of comfort and feel of safety when I look into his happy eyes.

my dream got interrupted got woken up

sat to dunday
dream two:
I am sitting on the edge of a building with my white and black wings ready to take off,  they feel heavy tonight. There are people behind me talking but I dont look back just at the city. I get up and leap over the edge and fly , I am just flying and crying. I reach somewhere desloated with an abanded building a i crawl in to a room with a silver light on the chair, I sit down on the chair, and someone says it's done your world is over...

i wake up since my cat decided to lay on my face.


dream three:
I am at a school, maybe high school that is part of a building and a forest and highway. The inside is all brown and the floor is grey concrete. All the lockers are in pairs of two and they are dressers oak dresser and really old they have that musky milk smell to them. As I make my way to mine I am passing old friends but there a present them and a past them roaming there a paradox really. Dustin smiles at me and says hurry we have band together later" So I unload my backpack that a notepad, markers, and pens. I open the cabinet with a key and the melts into my hand. I see there is all my textbooks, schedule, everything I need for classes, and towels, cups and snacks. But all the snacks are chocolate things and I don't like chocolate so i try to fill out the form of what needs to be changes. I grab a green textbook and head to the first class. For the books are in order of 7. I walk down a smoky hall and sit down and its Science, the teacher is insane and rocking and exploding and not really teaching he just says mimic me. We do and some people are dying around me as they mix their poisons. I don't really mix mine since inside my bowl is a skull and blood. The bell rings and I walk out and back to my locker. I grab the orange book next and go the opposite way I came from, and there is a lady and her snake. She beckons me and says history always repeats in you. I sti down and the whole class is a black and white film of the horrible wars and past incidents and then  it puts with whats going on now and she is right it's repeating only with a few minor changes. Class ends and I head for band and I dont need anything there. I go the room of familiar faces. Dustin says hurry get your trumpet, and I look back there is my maroon case with stars, moons, and sun painted on it. I pull it and its as heavy as it ever was. I open the case and there is my silver beauty. I sit down and realize I cant play with my lip ring on. I try taking it off and it wont budge it breaks in half and is embed in my skin like it is a part of me. The band director says I cant play until I get it off. SO class ends and I head back to my locker since it is time to go home. There is no homework so I dont need anything and put it all back and go throw what else is in there. I remember I drove there so I dont hurry I take my time. the glasses were in german, the plates were swiss, and the candy was finish and nothing was english. I take a left and walk out side to a desert and there are bones everywhere and lost of dust and the sun is swirling with black lines. I make it to my old car a 89 honda prelude, As i try to get in the scene changes and I am in the parking lot of a trinket store. I see a familiar face try to call me in. I put my stuff in my car and grab my purse. And there is this guy who i had a crush on when I was younger there and he says she'll kill you dont go. and vanishes. I shrug and crawl through the door since it's low and inside is all the nick nakcs and dolls that look everyone I have ever met. I see the doll of me in the middle smeared with blood. I look back up in the mirror and that girl who called me hacks my head off.

I woke up since my neck was hurting me.