Blog post 'My First (Trig) Blog'
My First (Trig) Blog
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friends house in kinston-upon-thames. as mum went into labour she got rushed to hospital with just some of her pals.when we were in hospital when i was born,we found out that the chick that was stayin in the house had accidently burned it down! so we were livin at the hospital 4 ages as we had nowhere to go! then we went off to live in all sorts,trucks,boats,squats....
i was either gonna be called: 'Zizigerat Zanzibar Zandos', 'Brown Rice' or 'Neon' luckily it was the last option! So mum raised me alone, dad used to have me occasionaly and we'd go and live on tour with different bands and that inspired me to be an singer. so whether i was staying with dad on a tour bus or livin at home i was always on the move.
me and mum were in the circus (Archaos) when i was about 4 and we had a horse and cart.
we went to a lot of protests. we always did Stonehenge.
me and mum had a great life just the two of us traveling around festivals, then she had Pema (my sister) when i was 5. then Pema and her dad joined us on our travels. Scuddy (Pema's dad) brought me up and home tutored me quite a bit but me and my sister also went to LOADS of differnt local schools in dorset, but i left too early to get any grades. we were badly bullied for being gypsies so i used to lie about who i was to the other kids at school and pretended i had a house instead of a trailer.
we used to eat the food that supermarkets threw away, that was luxury!
mum had two more kids when i was 10 or so with yet another step dad. he used to beat my mum and beat me and Pema up too, he was a fucking bully who me and Pema hated.
didn't have a TV so we were very creative at making stuff. i was a HUGE spice girl fan. i used to write down their lyrics and put on perfomances on our site.
i used to do trapeze shows at festivals to make my own money. i've always perfomed so it comes naturaly.
when i was 11 channel 4 made a documentary about me living on the road with the money i got from that, i bought my own first trailer (caravan).
we all went out to live in spain, france and portugal on and off for about 4 years. we did street performances & to earn our bread, sold stuff at festivals out there. it was great fun .we were happy.
i HATED puberty and was seriously depressed for a long time about it 'coz i was the first child and it wasn't made very easy for me to just grow up. mum's boyfriend used to take the piss out of me about it.
i smoked weed from the age of about 9 & from the age of about 11 i was pretty much stoned most of time.
when we came back from portugal i was 14 and we were at a festival up north somewhere and this 40 yr old guy that was suppossed to be a family friend went really wierd on me and was following me the whole time and kept coming to my trailer when i was alone and trying to touch me up. i tried to tell mum and everyone but no-one believed it 'coz he was all jokey about it. he scared the fuck out of me and at around the same time mum's boyfriend went all psyco and attacked her and beat Pema in front of me but mum still chose to keep him. so that is the day i left home ALONE and went to london 'coz i couldn't carry on seeing them get hurt.
i stayed at dad's flat in Dalston & got myself into school alone. i discovered the squat party scene though some of the kids at my school & found myself a whole new crew. but we got into drugs (mostly K) quite heavily. i went back out to spain when i was 15 with some of my squat crew and sacked off my dad. stayed out there and things got really messyso ran away from the people i went out there with to go to portugal in the back of some truck.
i came back to london feelin lonely, lived in squats with whoever & got back into that scene & took more K . when i was 16 i met a guy (who i'll call DEREK to protect his identity!) who was 26 on some grotty site after i had been driven back from yet another squat party where i'd had a bad experience. Derek took me under his wing and i loved him. we ran away to india together. i only realized what an alcholic he was when i came off drugs. he got me pregnant when i was 17 but, as we were living in a fucked trailer in a shit hole with a load of smack heads, i had an abortion.
i lived with Derek's bullshit for 5 years, seeing him get battered by men with crow bars and all sorts at squat parties, wherever. i found it hard fitting in with all of this hardcore mentality & seeing a lot of people die in front of me from drugs and stuff.
whilst all of this was going on i was trying to make a singing career. then, by a lucky chance i met Neneh Cherry & her husband Cameron McVey,they looked aftre me and that was the begining of my career really.
But Derek kept fucking up loads of opportunities for me, gigs and stuff, which was not good so i chose to put my singing first and split with him last year.
Pema came to live with me in a flat we rented in Brighton and we did ALL SORTS to make money. i had a waitressing job but got the sack after 1 day, the only proper legal job i've ever had!
all of this has been the inspiration for my songs.
i have ichy feet, o.c.d (obsesive compulsive disorder), i'm very good at blagging my way round things, i am VERY ambitious, i love my life and i dont regret ANYTHING.
mum still lives in her bus with the other kids in Wales and the bully boyfriend is out the picture!
we come from real gypsy blood (my great granma married into the fairground & fourtune telling scene. my great grandad was the last person to the live in a proper cave in the UK).
my dad was adopted so that is where i get the name 'Hitch' from (it was his adopted family's last name). but my dad changed his name.
after all the shit i've been thru,i now live in a beautifull house (not squated!) in muswell hill and my life is great! ......
i was either gonna be called: 'Zizigerat Zanzibar Zandos', 'Brown Rice' or 'Neon' luckily it was the last option! So mum raised me alone, dad used to have me occasionaly and we'd go and live on tour with different bands and that inspired me to be an singer. so whether i was staying with dad on a tour bus or livin at home i was always on the move.
me and mum were in the circus (Archaos) when i was about 4 and we had a horse and cart.
we went to a lot of protests. we always did Stonehenge.
me and mum had a great life just the two of us traveling around festivals, then she had Pema (my sister) when i was 5. then Pema and her dad joined us on our travels. Scuddy (Pema's dad) brought me up and home tutored me quite a bit but me and my sister also went to LOADS of differnt local schools in dorset, but i left too early to get any grades. we were badly bullied for being gypsies so i used to lie about who i was to the other kids at school and pretended i had a house instead of a trailer.
we used to eat the food that supermarkets threw away, that was luxury!
mum had two more kids when i was 10 or so with yet another step dad. he used to beat my mum and beat me and Pema up too, he was a fucking bully who me and Pema hated.
didn't have a TV so we were very creative at making stuff. i was a HUGE spice girl fan. i used to write down their lyrics and put on perfomances on our site.
i used to do trapeze shows at festivals to make my own money. i've always perfomed so it comes naturaly.
when i was 11 channel 4 made a documentary about me living on the road with the money i got from that, i bought my own first trailer (caravan).
we all went out to live in spain, france and portugal on and off for about 4 years. we did street performances & to earn our bread, sold stuff at festivals out there. it was great fun .we were happy.
i HATED puberty and was seriously depressed for a long time about it 'coz i was the first child and it wasn't made very easy for me to just grow up. mum's boyfriend used to take the piss out of me about it.
i smoked weed from the age of about 9 & from the age of about 11 i was pretty much stoned most of time.
when we came back from portugal i was 14 and we were at a festival up north somewhere and this 40 yr old guy that was suppossed to be a family friend went really wierd on me and was following me the whole time and kept coming to my trailer when i was alone and trying to touch me up. i tried to tell mum and everyone but no-one believed it 'coz he was all jokey about it. he scared the fuck out of me and at around the same time mum's boyfriend went all psyco and attacked her and beat Pema in front of me but mum still chose to keep him. so that is the day i left home ALONE and went to london 'coz i couldn't carry on seeing them get hurt.
i stayed at dad's flat in Dalston & got myself into school alone. i discovered the squat party scene though some of the kids at my school & found myself a whole new crew. but we got into drugs (mostly K) quite heavily. i went back out to spain when i was 15 with some of my squat crew and sacked off my dad. stayed out there and things got really messyso ran away from the people i went out there with to go to portugal in the back of some truck.
i came back to london feelin lonely, lived in squats with whoever & got back into that scene & took more K . when i was 16 i met a guy (who i'll call DEREK to protect his identity!) who was 26 on some grotty site after i had been driven back from yet another squat party where i'd had a bad experience. Derek took me under his wing and i loved him. we ran away to india together. i only realized what an alcholic he was when i came off drugs. he got me pregnant when i was 17 but, as we were living in a fucked trailer in a shit hole with a load of smack heads, i had an abortion.
i lived with Derek's bullshit for 5 years, seeing him get battered by men with crow bars and all sorts at squat parties, wherever. i found it hard fitting in with all of this hardcore mentality & seeing a lot of people die in front of me from drugs and stuff.
whilst all of this was going on i was trying to make a singing career. then, by a lucky chance i met Neneh Cherry & her husband Cameron McVey,they looked aftre me and that was the begining of my career really.
But Derek kept fucking up loads of opportunities for me, gigs and stuff, which was not good so i chose to put my singing first and split with him last year.
Pema came to live with me in a flat we rented in Brighton and we did ALL SORTS to make money. i had a waitressing job but got the sack after 1 day, the only proper legal job i've ever had!
all of this has been the inspiration for my songs.
i have ichy feet, o.c.d (obsesive compulsive disorder), i'm very good at blagging my way round things, i am VERY ambitious, i love my life and i dont regret ANYTHING.
mum still lives in her bus with the other kids in Wales and the bully boyfriend is out the picture!
we come from real gypsy blood (my great granma married into the fairground & fourtune telling scene. my great grandad was the last person to the live in a proper cave in the UK).
my dad was adopted so that is where i get the name 'Hitch' from (it was his adopted family's last name). but my dad changed his name.
after all the shit i've been thru,i now live in a beautifull house (not squated!) in muswell hill and my life is great! ......
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- Trigs
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Wow! That's possibly the most honsest and detailed blog I've ever read.
I'm glad your life is now going so well, hope your sister has a great life too!