Blog post 'One of my myspace bulletins titled DEPRESSION'
One of my myspace bulletins titled DEPRESSION
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as a person who has suffered with this all my life i must tell , people some of the things i have done to overcome , part of mine
when i was in the hospital for my depression , if i wouldnt respond to doctors , or what people were doing to try and help me and i would not talk and keep to myself , they would , just give me drugs and leave me alone , and if i fought out and basically acted for attention i would be placed in isolation and pumped full of enough drugs to make me pass out for 10 to 14 hours , trust me when you wake up you dont wanna fight you are hungry and have to go to the bathroom , now we all say hey i dont wanna do shit i hate life i dont wanna blah blah blah blah , but when it comes down to it and you have no use of your basic motor funcitons , hey you relize that maybe that problem that you thought was so great wasnt so bad , if you have at least another hour of life left in you , from what i learned don t spend it think in a deep depressed state bout how things were or how they were supposed to be ..... one thing i have learned that we do not control our lives we just have the ability to choose to be happy with our life or we can sit and cry about what is and what isnt , but i know that life is better lived then , sitting around thinking in our own heads bout what is wrong with life . i know sometimes the bad can out weigh the good but ....... guess what ive also learned , you dont have to bring that bad shit to the table ..... hey things happen and life is hard ...... if we all just sat in our rooms and cried bout things that have happened to us ..... there wouldnt be these things in life that you have felt you lost or things to cry about so think about that ... we can cry about our misfortunes or learn from them ....... i choose to learn from mine i hope you join me on my journey to happiness
when i was in the hospital for my depression , if i wouldnt respond to doctors , or what people were doing to try and help me and i would not talk and keep to myself , they would , just give me drugs and leave me alone , and if i fought out and basically acted for attention i would be placed in isolation and pumped full of enough drugs to make me pass out for 10 to 14 hours , trust me when you wake up you dont wanna fight you are hungry and have to go to the bathroom , now we all say hey i dont wanna do shit i hate life i dont wanna blah blah blah blah , but when it comes down to it and you have no use of your basic motor funcitons , hey you relize that maybe that problem that you thought was so great wasnt so bad , if you have at least another hour of life left in you , from what i learned don t spend it think in a deep depressed state bout how things were or how they were supposed to be ..... one thing i have learned that we do not control our lives we just have the ability to choose to be happy with our life or we can sit and cry about what is and what isnt , but i know that life is better lived then , sitting around thinking in our own heads bout what is wrong with life . i know sometimes the bad can out weigh the good but ....... guess what ive also learned , you dont have to bring that bad shit to the table ..... hey things happen and life is hard ...... if we all just sat in our rooms and cried bout things that have happened to us ..... there wouldnt be these things in life that you have felt you lost or things to cry about so think about that ... we can cry about our misfortunes or learn from them ....... i choose to learn from mine i hope you join me on my journey to happiness
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- Trigs
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I don't struggle with random (is that an accurate description?) depression for the most part just the nagging insecurities and boughts of low self-esteeem gifted from a messy childhood/family. But I do have a few weeks a year, around the dates of death for my parents and a brother, when I am inconsolably depressed. It's taken years to get a handle on it - I'm a slow learner I guess - but I don't think that it's quite the same as what you've struggled with. Because my 'issues' are easily related to people and events I can ritualize them and incorporate them into my life, once I realize what my problem is - owning? managing? whatever. I'm neither religious nor from a close family so I've had to re-invent the wheel for dealing with pretty much everything.
What do you do to pick yourself back up again? I'm sure your dog is a lifesaver, mine is.
Yeah brain's are pretty complex pieces of natural machinery and any slight hickup can affect them. Men who are prone to depression tend to be people who are creative types who need lots of feedback and reassurance of where they are in their lives.
It's good that you have realised that all the drugs in the world won't cure you...and in fact a lot of the time they mess you up even further. They can help but they don't heal..and thats about it. You can heal yourself though by doing exactly what you are doing here and getting feedback from your friends...makes you feel less insular as well and then you realise just how many fellow humans are affected just like you. So glad to hear you are trying the positive thought pattern...fight it! It's easier to surrender but when you do you fall even further into the "pit"...life is tough.. yep.. but man when you at the top of one of those roller coasters.. you KNOW life is meant to be fun! Life IS a roller coaster ride hey.. with it's up and downs, it's curves and stops....I love every bit of the ride and want MORE at the end! Many huggs to you..... Px aka Peg