push.tyber [TJ]

"if everyone keeps saying it we're just maybe someday going to turn around and.."

what are we doing? are we preventing the inevitable just a bit longer? should I have rolled over and touched his shoulder? should I have learned over while he was in the corner and just breathed down and let him understand that I was going to crawl into his skin? that I wanted to?

are we lying to everyone and ourselves or are we doing the right thing? would we ruin everything? could it actually be a happy storybook relationship like AJ and Kaz just seem to scream to me everytime i see anything about them [despite anything they go through, they always end up so happy and perfect]? no, no a story book one, but could we be content?

i know i could let him fuck girls, he needs that. would he let me? would he want to be inside me and would he understand that I don't need to be in him to be IN him? would we RUIN EVERYTHING? are we? does he want this like i do?

i could be this for him, and i could be something more. but does it want it? could i handle it? should we go that route? are we going to fuck ourselves over? would we become bored over time or a pair of perfect predators sharing skin and grinning back and forth while we suck how the girls taste of of eachother's mouths? could this work? would we be happy?

i'm happy. i'm so happy to be there. and i just never want him to go away. i never want to have to leave him again. i want to hold him to sleep. I want to kiss his eyelids. i want him in my mouth. i

what the fuck are we doing?

what the fuck are we doing?