sexywithin

Sexy Within The Daily K
By Mikel K

Most days I don't feel sexy within. I don't feel sexy without either. I don't much measure up to the media images of what a hot man is supposed to look like. I don't look good in a dress like Ru Paul does. I don't look good in a dress, like Kurt Cobain tried to. I don't feel right in a coat and tie; they choke me, and make me feel like I am playing somebody else's game. I look in the mirror and I see an overweight guy who needs to shave, who never made the cover of anybody's magazine, and was never GQ. The people over at Chippendale's would have laughed, had I ever asked to fill out an application. The guys and girls at Playgirl would have slammed the door in my face.

I'm ugly inside and out. My dad made this clear to me.

That being said, there are things that do make me feel sexy within; my kid, my pets, my writing.

Alcohol used to make me feel sexy, in fact alcohol was responsible for most of the sex that I had for the first thirty-four years of my life. Isn't that awful?  Your self-image is so low that you have to get drunk to feel good enough about yourself to chat with a lady at the bar. I could blame Dad again, I could blame the Catholic Church, I could blame it on my genes or my poor perception of how good I looked in those days in my jeans but I won't; I'll take full responsibility for it-it was all my fault, I just didn't feel sexy within. Perhaps if I had, all that has happened to me wouldn't have happened to me.  Not that things are bad now.  Like I said, my kids, my pets and my writing all make me feel sexy within.  And there is this woman, who I met sober, who thinks I'm sexy.  She makes me feel sexy within and without.  I guess love is the key.

I'll try to show you some love from within this Sexy Within Website.  From what I can tell, Lois has noble goals.  I'll probably bitch some though because that is still my nature, though I strive on a daily basis to overcome it. I don't want to be a bitch; I want to be sexy within, don't you?

I write a near daily column called The Daily K. I post a lot of it at my myspace blog (www.myspace.com/mikelkpoet) Sometimes in this column, I will be copying and pasting parts of The Daily K that I think that you just can't live without, that will make you feel sexy within. Hmmmmmmmm.  Something like that.  I'll also throw poems at you; because I'm a poet.

Enjoy.