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Reborn
By: Grease Monkey

I have been blessed with a second chance at life, a second chance at a sober existence. I have lost my identity over the years due to my disease of alcoholism. Many people have come and gone. My true friends (you know who you are) have been there through the good and the (many) bad times. The pain still remains, and there are many regrets. ... Many regrets, many people I have hurt due to my selfish, ignorant and arrogant actions. My inability to deal with life on life's terms led me down a path that contained nothing but pain, depression, and self-hatred. I cannot stress enough how sorry I am to the people I've hurt in the past. I hope that some day you can forgive me for my actions.

The liquid I once found solace in turned my life into a living nightmare for the better part of seven years. The light-hearted, personable, loving and caring person I once was, was gone in the blink of an eye. The disease took everything from me and replaced it with fear and pain. All of my goals and aspirations disappeared, along with my girlfriends, possessions, and money. I just buried them with booze and lived my life in a drunken illusion.

As the years progressed, my drinking became an everyday occurrence. I needed more booze to satisfy my mental obsession and physical addiction to the alcohol. I didn't care anymore. I didn't care about anything life had to offer. I just knew I didn't want to hurt inside. Lying in bed at night convulsing, sweating and scared... I wished that my life would just end.

The scars on my arms are a reminder of the past...and what can happen if I dare take my life for granted ever again. I have been blessed with the gift of a new outlook on life. A sober and FREE existence. A life with limitless possibilities. I have chosen to share this part of me with you because everyone needs a reminder now and again... A reminder of how precious life really is.

Carpe Diem!