Blog post '2am'
2am
- Published: 192 days ago
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So it's really early tired now after doing nothing practically. since my husband left is just been me and the cat. friends haven't called or anything nothing. guess they aren't really friends then right. if they know he left i am here to go to little parties/get togethers but they don't call. then they aren't very good friends then are they. so for rambling my mind is going a mile a minute. so if everything turns into one long sentence with no punction sorry about that. I don't want to call or text people cause i don't want to seem desperate to hang out with someone. i totally want them to call me but they don't. seems dumb i know but. i feel like if i always texting or calling asking whats going on then they might think i am desperate for attetion. all i want is a little human contact. someone to go to the movies or play put put with that is all i am asking. especially since my 24 birthday is like 6 days. and noone is going to celebrate it with me. no cake nothing. i am going to see sex in the city by myself on my birthday as a treat. my husband and i celebrated before he left but then it would be nice if ever one remembered and totally had a party for me. or a least one person came and hung out or called to tell me happy birthday besided my family. Who by the way are the greatest family ever!!!!!! They love me i already know that much. I know my best friend Kira would call me even belated. Jen would but i don't know cause she just had a baby. But everone else nothing!!! anyway sorry for all the blabber. Always and Forever! LL!
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One: Get out of the house and stop feeling deressed. The more you feel like that the worse you will get.
Two: The only one that's really feeling sorry for you is you.
I had a ten month old when my husband deployed for a year. 4 months will breeze by so fast you won't know what to do and when he gets home you'll just cling cause you got yourself so depressed. You want to celebrate your birthday then plan a party and call your friends to invite them. Don't wait for anyone else to do it for you because you are causing your own disappointment. Make sure it is a weekend, tell them no gifts are needed, tell friends to bring their kids if they have them and do it as a BBQ all day thing.
So stop feeling sorry for yourself that you are all alone in the house and do something about it. I went to school 5 days a week, worked out at the gym, and did things around the house I never seemed to get to when he was around. The busier you keep yourself the faster the time goes by.