texas_lily22: Blog

Whats the deal

texas_lily22 — Tue, 22 Jul 2008 02:10:51 +0000

Hey people whats up. im not to active on this site but i absoultly love it. anyways not much going on here. just working. and waiting for my husband to come back from overseas. anywho. sitting here drinking a coke cola and ate a little debbie snack. i swear those little debbie snacks will be the death of me. i had a zebra cake. so delicious. just woke up from my nap to talk with my husband on the phone now im waiting for him to get off shift walk back to his room so we can talk on the computer. wait wait wait wait. anyways thought i would throw down some words and so peace!

Crazy/Music

texas_lily22 — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 00:40:38 +0000

Been really crazy been training for my new job. Having a blast! My friend is one of serveral owners of this really cool coffee house/cafe. Its called A Shot In The Dark. They are open 24hrs. got really good coffee and food actually. they have a smoking area which is really rare because they ban smoking everywhere its riduclious. All the owners actually are the workers so they each have a unique style so the play different music depending on who is working at the time. I love it. im always looking to hear new stuff just because. I kinda think it makes life better and makes me unique when im all over the place with my music. Thats why i like trig because there are so many bands and singers that aren't signed and our just trying to find there way. They make beautiful music. i recently was at a party and they were playing this heavy metal. i like that stuff sometimes but it gets old after a while i tend to like to mix things up. so i got on trig to have them hear my playlist. and one of our friends actually like the music and wanted to know who they were and where to find them so i was like your not going to be able to find them at the local bookstore or music store yet. they were like damn. but if i can get the music around like everyone else does. someone is bond to recieve it that knows just want to do. and if im a helping hand in that then im proud. because i love music and more people should enjoy it like i do because you just feel better. whatever mood your in you can find the music that speaks to you and your not alone and you feel better about everything. So keep up the good work everyone!

Been awhile

texas_lily22 — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 07:22:16 +0000

i know thats it been awhile. i probably should be a bit more active here. but you know life gets in the way. i was in cali for three weeks doing my army training and it was a blast. it was my first time there. i worked mostly it was still a nice change of pace. anyways its late have to get up early just wanted to drop some words down. catch you on the flip side.

2am

texas_lily22 — Sat, 24 May 2008 09:23:40 +0000

So it's really early tired now after doing nothing practically. since my husband left is just been me and the cat. friends haven't called or anything nothing. guess they aren't really friends then right. if they know he left i am here to go to little parties/get togethers but they don't call. then they aren't very good friends then are they. so for rambling my mind is going a mile a minute. so if everything turns into one long sentence with no punction sorry about that. I don't want to call or text people cause i don't want to seem desperate to hang out with someone. i totally want them to call me but they don't. seems dumb i know but. i feel like if i always texting or calling asking whats going on then they might think i am desperate for attetion. all i want is a little human contact. someone to go to the movies or play put put with that is all i am asking. especially since my 24 birthday is like 6 days. and noone is going to celebrate it with me. no cake nothing. i am going to see sex in the city by myself on my birthday as a treat. my husband and i celebrated before he left but then it would be nice if ever one remembered and totally had a party for me. or a least one person came and hung out or called to tell me happy birthday besided my family. Who by the way are the greatest family ever!!!!!! They love me i already know that much. I know my best friend Kira would call me even belated. Jen would but i don't know cause she just had a baby. But everone else nothing!!! anyway sorry for all the blabber. Always and Forever! LL!

Yellow Ribbon

texas_lily22 — Mon, 19 May 2008 07:35:47 +0000

So the day is Sat. May 17, 2008 and its 4am. I'm waking up and I am waking my husband up. He needs to get up cause today he is leaving for 4 months to the desert! I'm sad the day has come to soon and now i feel we haven't spent enough time together. The day is going to be hard cause instead of coming home to an empty house i have my reserve drill. Duty calls on both our ends you could say. He flew to baltimore only to stay the night. He left there sunday evening and it was the last time i talked to him. My emotions are up one minute and down the next. I know as a soldier myself the risks and rewards of the job. But as a wife well this is a learning exprience. The overwhelming feeling is well overwhelming at times and calm the next. I keep telling my self to focus on the days ahead for they will pass quickly. however my heart aches with each passing second. Wondering, Wondering, Wondering. when does it end when i know i hear his voice again on the other end telling me he made it safely. It pains me to no end that the person i love so dearly will not be coming home tonight and that the other side of the bed is empty each night. The words i write now our words that as i feel them come make me all choked up. Fighting the tears of lonelyness is my main objective for if they come i don't really know if my heart can take them. The soldier in me tells me that everything is alright and to be strong. But when the heart aches and longs it will be the driving force to all things. I must take the wheel and steer on my own accord even if that means letting a few tears drop ever once in awhile.

To love forever and always!

(This is gross) It totally sucks!

texas_lily22 — Wed, 14 May 2008 14:14:11 +0000

i'll start with a little back story. I live in Arizona where the air is so fucking dry it drys out my nose to where i can't breath so i have to clean it out every morning and usually what comes out is dry blood thats how bad it is. Well yesterday morning when i got up i preceeded with my normal routine but instead of dry blood i get full on nose bleed and i am not talking about a little bit. I am talking about it look like some punched the shit out of me. I had to go to the emergency it would not stop bleeding for like 20 minutes. it was crazy. so the doctor came in and in way carterizied with some kind of chemical and like i was told i couldn't mess with it at all for like a week. The only problem know is it feels like this big huge burger in my nose that i can't get out. It fucking sucks so bad i feel it and there is nothing i can do about it. Sorry for such a gross blog but i seriousely needed to vent my fustrution out on someone or something. Thanks for listening!

what's new?

texas_lily22 — Fri, 09 May 2008 19:33:05 +0000

so i haven't been on in a long time. so busy. husband is leaving for overseas in like a week. got my job that i have been waitng for. only took a year and half. crazy life so hectic inside. sometimes just don't know what to do but scream. other than that i sleep all day or i am on the computer or watching t.v. or on the computer while watching t.v. which is stupid though. cause i'm on the computer why do i need to waste electricty with the t.v. on. i have more to write but i don't want to write it all right now. so till next time try to be on more.

Vacation

texas_lily22 — Thu, 13 Mar 2008 18:52:53 +0000

So my husband is leaving in May for Bragram. So we decided to go home for 2 weeks before he has to leave. so we r back in Texas right now. we went out to the club last night. we had a blast didn't get home till 4am it was awesome just to have fun. Tim has been so busy with work it has been stressfull these last couple of months. anyway just wanted to vent and stuff.

Holy Crap!!!

texas_lily22 — Mon, 25 Feb 2008 08:31:35 +0000

So it has been to long since i last wrote something. i do apologize. livin life what can i say. Started working again finally. it was needed. going stir crazy at home while i wasn't working. also husband has been on the mid shift so sleep schedule really screwy. fixing to go to sleep here soon. but just wanted to write in real fast since i hadn't been on is so long.

I just gotta say

texas_lily22 — Thu, 03 Jan 2008 08:53:11 +0000

happy holidays to all. New year has come and the old one is gone. Got my new cell phone i love it!!!! not much going on here. Just been here and there and not have anytime to my self since my husband went on the mid shift which is like the graveyard shift. he always wants to spend time with me. sometimes he is just way to clingy. he used to be not like that before me moved. Kinda a fustrating how people change when the situiation has changed. Oh Well! You get over it and move on. So so blabby haven't been on and so long. I LOVE TRIG!!! you get to meet a lot of different people. Not like myspace were a bunch of kids are on.. Trig is like serious people with things the love like music, photography, poetry. I can't get enough of it. well guess i will go play games on another site at 2am were i am at.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE
HOPE 2008 Brings everyone LUCK!!!!

4 AM

texas_lily22 — Wed, 12 Dec 2007 11:29:20 +0000

So some crazy person called my cell phone and started causing all kinds of drama with me and my husband. i really wanted to find out who is was and punch the living shit out of him.. i don't really want to go into details about it but it was fucked up royally. well it made us a lot closer i have to say but it's pretty sad when some stranger makes you closer with your spouse. anyway hope everyone out in Trig land is doing great. it's really rainy and cold where i am at. it's kinda nice. want it to snow like it did last year. thinking about changing the pic up at the top but i don't know yet maybe at the begining of the new year i will. i have four roles of film i still need to develope from last year. i know that definately is not good for the film but hey what can you do with no extra money in the pocket. well talk with cha laterz!!

my druken blog

texas_lily22 — Tue, 06 Nov 2007 08:23:00 +0000

so iam getting drunk and i feel good if there are tyoung errors i apologize deeply . when you ar feelign good you feelgood no one is on so i decided to type a blog. thats it maybe i wil type later when i am evey more trached

What's new with you?

texas_lily22 — Fri, 02 Nov 2007 11:58:15 +0000

So not much going on here. Husband is on mid shift which really sucks. Mid's is from 10 pm to say 8 am. i started a tax course which rans mon, wed, and fridays from 6-9 pm which to say the least we don't spend to much time together. he will be on the shift for two months. good thing my classes don't run that long. besides that nothing new. still the same boring person i was when i started this thing. i hoping to get hired by the tax people after i finish this course cause we need money bad. we just aren't getting anywhere. i isn't something i want to do but sometimes when just got it do it till we are able to do what we really want to do. i want my own bussiness. i fell in love with photography when i was in highschool and ever since then i want to do that for my job. i actually got the opprutunity to work for a portrait company. Learned a lot made me want my bussiness even more. Someday i will open it if it is the last thing i do. i have big plans for my company. Hopefully i will get the chance. Enough about me what about yourself???

THE YELLOW ROSE

texas_lily22 — Sat, 20 Oct 2007 21:29:50 +0000

The yellow rose was my abuela's favorite. The picture was taken by me. She grew the most beautiful roses in her garden.

DEATH

texas_lily22 — Fri, 12 Oct 2007 21:15:42 +0000

A lot of people are scared of death but i think it is a blessing because w en we leave this world we don't have to worry about all the bull-shit in this world. Recently my grandmother passed away. i wished i had spent more time with her but i know that i will be hanging out with her soon enough. cherish you loved ones. make peace with yourself and live strong for another day. Best wishes to all.

The sickness

texas_lily22 — Thu, 20 Sep 2007 06:24:07 +0000

So i m sick and my father is a truck driver told me that he had at and that all lot of places he went through had it as well. circling the globe i supose. Almost done with mine. just got a cough and phglem. Tast yummy. going to go make taco's now. feel better world. *cough cough cough*

That's Camp!!

texas_lily22 — Fri, 07 Sep 2007 02:50:46 +0000

i went on a camping trip this past weekend it was great except for the fact that is was suppose to be a 4 hour drive. it ended up being 10 hours. we left on time on friday morning but construction one way and and accident the alternate way fucked us up. so we finally got there it was a blast. i have a little video our friends took all the photos though. i got sunburned but not really bad managed to get a little tan from it.

Whats new around the world?

texas_lily22 — Tue, 14 Aug 2007 03:53:01 +0000

I always wanted to travel but i know i will never have the time or the money to do this while i am young. My husband is active duty military and he'll never get time off. i know this cause i spent 7 years in the military myself. not to mention we never have extra money its all gone by the time we pay our bills and put fuel into are car and buy groceries. it would be nice to take or vactions to other places like Australia, England, Ireland,and Scotland.

Speaking of which just wondering how things are going around the world? My way of bridgeing the gap between nations!!!

I feel fucking great

texas_lily22 — Tue, 07 Aug 2007 23:30:34 +0000

So i am tired. funny cause i don't do a damn thing all day. i have no job anymore. I miss texas. the other thing i like here is my husband and cat and a couple of new friends. everything in tucson is so fucking spread out that if i wanted a job i couldn't just walk to it. and we only have one car. Other than that i love my life and ya. i think that i have it good though. i have parents that love me and our cool as shit. i have a big family on both mom and dad side. the only disfunction family that i am close to is my husband they kinda isolated themselfs from the rest of the family. is mom is like a black sheep and stuff. my husbands parents are both pretty young they are still in their 30's. my husband is the oldest of 4. anyway i am blabbing so i am getting the hell off.

Military pic

texas_lily22 — Wed, 01 Aug 2007 23:46:13 +0000

Don't be fooled by the picture. Many military personal love serving for their country, but hate war. we may not agree with our governments choices but we serve regardless. So to help others when they are in need. The government may have a hidden agenda i don't know. The people who serve just take orders. We are they only to help. We may stick our noises where they don't belong. We do it because we think others are suffering. I know a lot of forgniers think americans are ignorant and such but each one of is different from the next as i suspect those around the world each have a different view on things. I may think you are treating someone wrong but if you don't then that is your opinion then that is your right as a human being and i have no place to judge. My only concern is to get you to see both sides and then make a judgement. Then what ever you decide well your a free thinking. Think away!

Picture

texas_lily22 — Tue, 24 Jul 2007 23:39:23 +0000

So you may be wondering what my profile pic is all about. I served in the military for 7 years. And the picture is me driving a big ass vehicle cause that was my job. I was a wheeled vehicle driver. I drove a lot. so much that most of the time if i am just riding in a vehicle i get motion sickness. Driving makes me happy. Wish i was still in driving. but i married a man who wants to make a career out of the military and i felt if we were to have kids that i wouldn't want them to lose both parents. i when my time was up i decided not to reenlist. Sad to leave my second family but people make scarifices all the time. Anyway just thought you all might want a background on the pic.

i don't know what to write about.

texas_lily22 — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 03:25:09 +0000

I was just staring of just now trying to come up with something to write about. I totally drew a blank. I always have so much stuff on my mind i want to write down but when the moment comes to get to write down i go blank. I hate that. guess i'll write about that then. You know what also sucks is when like your holding something and the you forget that your holding something and by the time that you realize that you were holding something you have already dropped that item. I do that a lot with like paper and utensils. i be walking and it will slip out of my hand. it's like i forget i was holding it so my hand natually relaxed and when i did that i drop the item. Crazy maybe that only happens to me. I am ok with that. I always attribute my weirdness and stuff to being born on a full morning enclipse. I feel very special like almost blessed. I am a very open minded person. I have my own opinion and i share but never push my believes on anyway. Sometime when i hear people talk about something i wish i could hit them just because they say something so closed minded but at the same time they don't relize it they contradict themselves. I do sometimes believe when people are closed minded about things they are wrong. so much i want to say wish i could video log my stuff. so many words to type up so much easier if i could say what i wanted. anyway i think that is it for now before this grows a mind of it's own.

boring life

texas_lily22 — Sat, 07 Jul 2007 01:47:00 +0000

Sometimes when i sit at the computer i think wow what am i doing here typing. Do i not have a life at all. sit at home all day waiting for my husband to come home. I have this job that i am getting but i am on medical hold cause i got physical therapy done on my knees and they want a specialist to sign off on them so that i finish the process of getting this job. anyway i have a boring life but i guess in the long run i wouldn't want it any other way.

Photography

texas_lily22 — Tue, 19 Jun 2007 19:24:46 +0000

So i am itching to get back behind my camera. i don't have a digital one i perfer old fashion 35mm black and white film. I have a Canon rebel X. i love my camera even though i need a new one cause i abused my camera too much. I miss shooting film. i'm not great at it but i love it. I love it so much i wish i had a dark room so i could do all the processing my self. one day i will. I like to shoot a lot of nature photos. Like plants and animals. I love when storms blow in and how the sky turns different shades of gray thats the best. i should scan in some of the photos i did for my photography class they aren't that great but they are the best one's i have. Going on vaction. Leaving tomorrow be back next wed. going back home to see family and friends since me and the husband leave way out of state from everyone we know. thats it and i am super tired.

You like my turtle!

texas_lily22 — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 22:37:04 +0000

This isn't my turtle but i took the picture. i like it the photograph it came out good. anyways not doing much fixing to go on vacation and see family. i think family is important to have in ones life. family can really be anyone to you like a tight net group of friends you might have or actual blood relatives. I love my family there are so many of them. My mom is one of five sisters no brothers and my dad is one of eight i think. everyone has more than one kid of their own and me and four other cousins are the only ones that don't have kids of our own on my mom side on my dad side only two consins out of 10 have kids. and we keep growing. i love it only bad thing is it is hard to remember names especially if you don't see them often. too many to keep track of.