unspokenandbroken en-us 40 unspokenandbroken's blog posts <div style="text-align: justify;">Well my thoughts for the week are pretty much at a blur. I mean it is Thanksgiving week and it just came by a little way too fast for me. Just a moment ago it seemed like it was Halloween. I didn't do much this past Halloween and sadly felt like I wasted it away by doing nothing really but play my online game. This Thanksgiving I have no real special plans but the same old thing I do every year and that is eating with my family. But the thing is I have a small family so it isn't very much of a big event to me. I just enjoy the fact it is a holiday and it is that time to kinda relax and appreciate it for what it is. Of course it is great to sit on the couch and watch those Thanksgiving special reruns.&nbsp;<br /> <br /> Lately it seems for the past month I have been getting nothing but non-stop dreaming. Every night there is something new.&nbsp; My theory is that the cause for the rapid dreaming is due to some problem I am dealing with deep down within myself, something that I am not just happy about. But what it is I wouldn't know for sure. My ex girlfriend Julie and I been talking for the past months since October, we are good friends still but love each other very much. I wouldn't know exactly how she really feels about me because since we had to split apart and the breakup wasn't at all very bad. I mean we had to break up because she needed to be back with her family. Our relationship started as a long distance one but later she decided to move in with me. So now she moved back with her family, we remained somewhat friends. All I know is we still tell one another "I love you" and everytime she does say it in the emails it makes my day or week a lot better it was. Just makes me feel a lot more stronger.<br /> <br /> But sadly I don't have anyone here with me that will tell me what Julie writes me each week. It is kinda depressing being alone again. Being single is ok, but I been single for a little too long. I mean most of my life it had to deal with me searching for that right girl of mine but somehow things never worked out the way I liked it to or tried. So maybe that does bother me a little. But there isn't much I can really do about it. It really does tire me to start a conversation with some girl I've never met and engage in another relationship with that person to figure if they are that special woman I've been searching for all my life. Sure I am young and I got a whole life time it seems but am not so sure how long this slump I am in will last.</div> <br /> <br /> Wed, 21 Nov 2007 18:57:41 +0000 urn:uuid:37666 unspokenandbroken http://trig.com/unspokenandbroken/blog/2007/11/21/post/37666 family girlfriend ex depression dreams love thanksgiving