usa69

I haven't invited him over yet because I've been really nervous of my Mom waking up in the middle of the night and screaming, "What the fuck is going on here?!?!?!?"

Well I've asked a very trusted friend and she told me that I should just ask him. So, I'm definetly going to ask him over sometime in the near future; this week hopefully. The only reason I'm [probably] not going to ask him tonight is because I just found out we're [my Mom and me] are going out to dinner with her boyfriend! And I can't tell her that I don't want to go because I was planning on sneaking a guy into the house tonight [no I'm not screwing him, in case anyone was thinking that]. So that bloody ruined my perfect plan...

I have no clue why but I'm a reck when it comes to him... A nervous but happy, love-struck reck. I called up my trusted friend after school today and we talked it over... She says that I just need to be a llitle stronger [in her very tough way, bless her soul... ^^'] and everything will be fine.

All I can say is, 'Shit, man!" I just don't know what to do... I'm fine with talking to him on AIM [about most things] and I would trust him with my life but I'm as nervous as Hell to see him face to face again after some off the things that have been said... *nervous laugh*

Anyway, if I think of anything else to jam into this already long blog entry, be sure that I will add it. Until then...

Scared to be in Love,

~Usa69~